Still I Am Not

Silently you smiled from far peeping me Smiled silently with mind of lonely Smiled from far seeing me Peeped through the chink of door You’re looking what I had done Smiled with luscious lips of bending new moon You smiled on my wearing lungi on fatty belly From far you smiled soothingly But when I wanted to be closed on your smiling then you moved away other side, You’re smiling on my activities that- what I’d been eating, what I’d been drinking, what I’d been watching, what I’d been reading You smiled and peeped always me when I wore official cloths then you smiled, when I got out to office then you smiled smiled an innocent fair smiling from far silently When I came back to home from office I found you staring on me with adoring smiling, You looked at me through window sash How I’d been changing the official dress How I’d been refreshing myself How I’d been showering by tube well water You stared me standing under coconut tree Lamp of evening lit up in your home Also my mother lit up the candle light, hurricane Over the sky, God also lit up the evening light by the full moon and twinkling stars, When I went to your ingenuous staring and said on that true light- I love you. You left me without reply by smiling This was much known to me and you went to your own home of mind By course of time- All moments had been passing on, passing on the day, the week and the month. You, only, gave smiling, Smiled on me with lovely face, graceful lips This immaculate, flawless, graceful smiling I loved very much, I said on uncountable true lights, on flawless shining of sun, many times- I, only, love you. Do you love me? No answer you gave me without silent smiling, without sight of mysterious eyes, without hypnotizing power of dancing body on your went back zigzag path of smiling (Continuous) -October 31, 2018 Chattogram