Something Real?
*This poem is intended to be read centre aligned*
See
a
penny,
pick it up,
And all the day
you’ll have good luck,
Or use it to purchase private thoughts,
An evening of thrills and spills and nasty shocks,
Or maybe even give it away, But you’re left
feeling cheaper, And debts due to pay,
You know the worst guilt
isn’t the lies you told
your friends,
Or your mother
with her trusting eyes,
It’s the lies you told yourself,
Reality blurs,
You’re
drunk
on
denial,
Stumbling, fumbling,
Through rotting records of an aching brain,
A walking disaster, A walking cliché,
She taught you to laugh
at the absurd,
So you laugh
at yourself,
And the
ugliness dulls,
But the fear’s still left,
Hold it down,
Bind it up,
Bury it
deep,
It’s
not
healthy,
But it’s easy,
Pray it heals itself
while you
sleep,
And
you’re
so tired
of being tired,
The drugs don’t help,
They were placebos anyway,
Oh how they stick in your throat,
The pills are piling up, Making mountains
in your stomach, Filling up your pipe,
Full to bursting, Or that’s how
you account for the pain
at least,
Purge
it with your pen,
The paper’s heavy
with word
vomit,
Cry it,
Sweat it,
Bleed it out,
Your temple lies unchanged,
Frozen bones and hardened vessels,
A veritable statue, With a pretty face and granite for guts,
They said religion is for the dying and the desperate,
Well we’re all dying anyway,
I’m desperate
for the truth,
Clinging
onto
saving graces,
And slowly losing grip,
Hard to guess how bad
you’re broken,
It’s been
years
since you were whole,
Watch
them bask
in your phantom light,
Beautiful mind or beautiful soul –
They say it’s in the eye of the beholder,
But I’m decomposing inside out,
You can’t measure what
you can’t see,
Hold your
judgement,
shut your mouth,
So turn away from love,
Affection, empathy,
Wound’s salt,
Because you know
that they can’t change it,
And you know
it’s all your
fault.
Copyright © Synonym Thesaurus | Year Posted 2009
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