Someone There

sometimes so empty mind rolling with constant thoughts hoping, praying for that someone to be there never there.. should I try to speak? or just let my emotions hit the peak? how long does this be? memories of phases when that someone was there when you knew they could really care is this fare? feelings as if wanting to give up appear! unsure what to do? every time the same thing all I want is that love that the memories of the phases when that someone was there always there.. now where? how could this be? never time… time for me? I try, morning comes sun is shining, a new day maybe today, I say? or is this just a continuance? is this life? how should this be? am I worth it? or was I just chosen by that someone who was once there? to bear what I bear? hoping, praying…. for that someone to be there.