So Many Girls

Friends look at me proud when I tell them I've been with so many girls, and have so many stories But here I am alone, as I haven't found the girl that's for me I've had my heart broken and I've broken hearts too But here I am sitting alone with alcohol and love songs in this dark room Looking back I'm ashamed of the life I've been leading I used girls as a bandage for a scar that's still bleeding I thought I had the right to go from girl to girl due to my dad leaving How could we ever be on the same page when I wasn't interested in reading? I'm tired of pointless sex and meaningless flings I hope one day I'll find a queen and be strong enough to be her king My parents not showing me love, means that when people do, I don't know what to make of it Have I been unlucky in love or am I just bad at relationships? I act like I was the only young person who was broken and insecure I closed my heart for so long, I don't think I've been this open before I'm sorry to every girl I've dated who was hoping for more I need to learn to love me, so you were right by closing the door Hopefully one day when a girl shows me she cares I won't run I don't want to be with so many girls, and a part of so many stories, I want to write a book with one One day I'll accept love and find the perfect girl for me I won't hide these pages, but I'm done with being involved with so many girls and so many stories