Since Then

A knock on the door, Brings it all back Pain in my tears, Is all that remains Words burn through My memories, of “what ifs” A sea of agony sways back in Pushing me, in a black whirlpool What did I say or do Why are you there, and not here How was I to know, That one word, would bring down my world My complete demise, nothing has been the same Not the days, or the seasons Who am I now, surviving day by day Who have I been? A woman, taking with her, pain In her eyes and smile The nights cry for my despair, Living in lies, in yesterday’s laughters.