Self-Harm

Her eyes are full of secrets no one will know
She wears long sleeves so the scars won't show
at first it was by choice but now I can't take control 
scars on my wrist as well on on my soul 
They had even made their way to my forearm 
Not any drug is as addicting as self-harm 

The only time I can actually think
Is when I watch my blood go down the sink
though the power to stop is not guaranteed 
Doing this is my one chance to feel free
It may seem like I just want to die
But that is the opposite to what this implies

I did my best to prove to you that I exist
I even painted pretty cuts on my wrist
So go ahead,laugh and be mean
Your voices haunt me as I bleed
I smile as if I'm just so amused 
So no one suspects me of my abuse

Funny thing is that no one defines 
I'm lying every time I say I'm fine
The problem has reach to the extreme 
Can't any hear or notice my screams
I never knew the thing that's keeping me alive
Has been secretly killing me this entire time

Please take my razors,the whole pack
And promise you will never give them back
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Williams Avatar
June 30, 2012 at 9:27 AM
Amber, if non-fiction, you are very brave to write about it, that is the first step to seeking help, now shout louder to the right people...David
Grisetti Avatar
June 29, 2012 at 3:38 PM
Cutting is serious. I like your poem and the way you have described what it us like. My fdaughter said it was the only thing she felt, when she would cut and burn. But it hurts more than the cutter.
Rose Avatar
June 29, 2012 at 3:43 PM
Thanks, I know it is serious and very addicting.I'm trying my best to stop.
Henderson Avatar
June 29, 2012 at 1:48 PM
May the Almighty bless you! Peace from me to you.
Rose Avatar
June 29, 2012 at 1:51 PM
Thank you
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