Seasonal Thoughts

I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME,CHERISH THOSE LOVELY MOMENTS AGAIN. I WISH I COULD COME OUT OF THIS GLOOMY DISDAIN. FOR SOMEONE IT'S NOT POSSIBLE TO MEASURE FATHOM OF MY PAIN, FOR ME IT'S A LONG FOUGHT BATTLE,BUT HARDLY ANY WINS. I RESURRECT MY SOUL AGAIN JUST TO BRING ANOTHER DEFEAT MY HEART TURNED TO SHARD FALLING APART PIECE BY PIECE, SO BRITTLE AND SHALLOW IT HARDLY BEATS. THE ALLEGORIES I HEARD ALL MY CHILDHOOD ARE FAR FROM TRUTH, THE ARDOURS THEY CARRY,MUST BE A MYTH A TILT TOWARDS WORLDLY WAYS, IT'S QUITE PLAUSIBLE TO BE JANUS-FACED. A SIMULACURAM OF YOUR SOUL PLACED IN SOME DIFFERENT FRAME, OBVIOUS IT IS I DO PRACTISE THE SAME. AN ADROIT & AFFABLE PERSON TO THE WORLD OUTSIDE, A TRUTH DIFFICULT TO COMPREHEND...... A LONE WALKER FROM INSIDE. PS- DEEP IN MY THOUGHTS I SCRIBBLE SOMETHING... FEW BIZARRE WORDS AND A SET OF CLUMSY FEELINGS.