Search For Freedom, Deeply Hurt Emotions

She seeks for a "word" that conveys her emotions, the surge and synergy of her feelings of anger, rage, pain, joy, and happiness but she hasn't found one and she'll never find. These pains are abominable, plagues her unbearable, hits her impossible, terminates her consciousness and reverses her emotions turning her upside down, inside out, twisting, turning, burning, tearing her asunder. Her tears are no longer watery but bloody, she has become wounded and injured internally. She looks pale, wretched, feeble, lacking energy, looking uncertain, not trusting her confidence. In a quest to re-assemble her ruptured self, her eyes began to open to deep and secret things that became unveiled to her. She started seeing things she never observed & took note- notice of. Her inner eyes and consciousness began to re-awaken in a new dimension and chapter like opening a new page in a never ending book. Suddenly, she began to see things that she should have seen-noticed, things that felt like they weren't there before, things that made more meaning and continually captured her inquisitiveness. She felt like her thirst and hunger were gradually being quenched and filled simultaneously and respectively. But no she got it all wrong instead her thirst and hunger represented her quest for freedom ~ liberty, knowledge, healing, inquisitiveness and solutions, forever "stalling" and mesmerizing her inquisitiveness.