Screwed and Lost

You meant the world to me, and I screwed up. you were always there from me to care for me laugh with me talk with me and I screwed up. I saw what I saw i heard what I heard and what I heard and saw is what made me think. I didnt want to but I did now I see that I had made a big mistake that I'll always regret. Why does it have to be this way? I've called and called. left messages and more messages you never returned my calls in over a week now I hear you still love me but Im gone so oh well...? if you still loved me, you'd call. if you still loved me, you'd write. if you still loved me, you'd get me back 1 way or another. I still love you that will never change but I'm so lost. lost at what I did lost at what I should do. I'm lost and hopefully will be found. its not fair! but I guess i have to deal with it.