Schizophrenia

I live in my mind So deafening is the sound The constant beating of my heart like it is trying to keep me aware I live in my thoughts constantly trying to figure myself out Like a puzzle never solved I keep on scrabbling the pieces trying to put them together I have opened all the doors in my mind constantly searching The most beautiful feeling The feeling of being covered with clouds The screams,the yells I am exhausted Constantly running I can see my reflection in all the stares I get Am I that transparent? Staring at the green plant Withering away The beat of my heart slowing down I am not aware I wither with my thought