Right turn

What a rotten seed you went to plant under the soil of my inner land your empty deeds left roots in the sand of the lonely beach where I now stand. Did I chose wrong? did I do this to myself? did I dig the hole of my own grave? did I finally destroy the only chance of having in this life what I deserve? Did I say what needed to be said did I do what was right? did I take the right turn in the traffic light? did I go too far just to realize love wasn't as I thought it'd be like? Jessica