Re Difining Re Tirement

i haven't retired yet other then retiring in my bed which that being said leads me to here where i took a day off coughing but not sick just clearing my throat as if i'm speaking instead of simply typing what words you are reading and words on my mind so in a sense i am speaking but in my mind with the always present conversationalist accompanied by the random soundtrack that plays but never knows which song or genre will be preformed for that score is written every day and not the day before for they are fresh free range organic thoughts that with no impurities pop up whenever ever they decide to speak for notes are words just look at your note book's scribbling having meaning but sometimes not meaning anything but suggesting due to interpretation as so simple is music not even having to have that kind of sensabilities can't you hear your heart beat along with the roof drum rain is playing on adding to the melody of bird songs sung along with con struction hums and the occasional voices of people passing by the window that you can't seem to be able to pass outside