Puzzling

What really passed between us then? How did each of us feel? To me it's still oh so special And it was very real There came a point when we spiraled Cruel words and thoughts exchanged And disdainful treatment of each Other’s deep hurts and pains I thought you had just turned on me! I was confused and sad I still can't solve the puzzle of Why it became so bad There's a jigsaw piece still missing Without I cannot see The underlying reason for Your animosity Was it my failure to visit? Or me not writing back? Was it my young unfaithfulness? Or all of these things stacked? But you reached out to me after All these various things Had me hoping for your laughter Not decades of these stings Were you still so in love with me? Your hatred just a fake? Did your pride make you look so tough To hide profound heartache? I will never really know why 'Cause you won't talk to me I wish we could take a minute To help each other see