Psychotic Episode

I talk to myself in many voices Having conversations with myself Answering my own questions Thinking it is something else The mind can play tricks If you let it It can convince you of anything The conscious and subconscious mind At times feels separate From each other Not connecting as well as it could be A detachment from the brain Lost in translations Of many conversations To feel safe and calm Within oneself The fear of losing yourself When no one hears or believes you Feelings and thoughts Put on a dusty shelf Not everything is clear But I am totally aware Of what is going on Many layers of words Coming out of nowhere Can scare the mind into submission Eating pieces away of your soul Losing control Feeling all alone In your psychotic turmoil Who will be there in the end If I go numb and cannot see Love me as I am Or set me free to be me