Pregnant Silence

So many things I have to say to you Yet your absence robs me of your attention Yet fuels the word train of my emotions So many things I want to say to you Yet my tongue refuses to obey my mind Yet my body refuses to cooperate and call So many seconds of silence hang between us That need to be filled by conversation That need to be released from curious expectation So many things I have to explain To help you understand me and my actions To release me from this invisible yet strong bond to you So many things should have been that are not So many words treasured and captured So many moments and gestures remembered So many incomplete conversations So many unfulfilled fantasies Something is incomplete that should not be Someday the circle shall come full