Play To Lose

I'm not here to stroke your ego,
Or be the victim of your lies.
I need to save myself
From the emptiness inside.

You might not see it yourself,
But we're playing tug of war.
A constant pull back and forth,
Like we're not a team anymore

I should let go of this rope.
Heal the lacerations on my skin.
I can't keep playing this game.
When my energy is wearing thin.

You tell me to change myself,
And argue when I disagree.
Tell me I care "too much".
Which is a flaw apparently.

You used to call me beautiful,
And it sounded so sincere.
But since then,
Harsh jokes or silence is all I seem to hear.

If your words hurt me,
I stay quiet in fear of seeming weak.
It's not fair I have to think twice,
Whenever I go to speak.

Who do I turn to
When I want someone to trust?
You never cared about me,
Since all you feel is lust.

I used to lie to myself,
Apologize for your mistakes.
But now I can see the truth,
And there's not much more I can take.

Everyone seems to understand me,
Except when it comes to you.
While I fight for you everytime,
I'm just some girl you chose to pursue.

You aren't who I thought you were.
My eyes always deceive.
My friends told me you were careless,
But I didn't want to believe.

I'm not some puppet girl,
You keep on a string.
Things aren't going to change,
So I need to stop wishing.

Don't tell me it's all in my head,
And you still care about me.
You never knew what you wanted,
So just set me free.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020


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Date: 4/25/2020 7:15:00 PM
Oh, succinct. Sharp ink! You go girl, and don't look back. xomo
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Emma Berg
Date: 4/27/2020 2:08:00 AM
Awe, thanks!
Date: 4/25/2020 12:52:00 PM
Well said! A voice of experience! The only thing one can certainly change in life is one's own attitude, so when beaux start trying to change YOU, you know they have a problem! Bonne chance! Aloha! Rico
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Emma Berg
Date: 4/27/2020 2:08:00 AM
Thank you!
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Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart
Date: 4/25/2020 7:15:00 PM
Lovely said Rico! ~x
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