Play to Lose

I'm not here to stroke your ego, Or be the victim of your lies. I need to save myself From the emptiness inside. You might not see it yourself, But we're playing tug of war. A constant pull back and forth, Like we're not a team anymore I should let go of this rope. Heal the lacerations on my skin. I can't keep playing this game. When my energy is wearing thin. You tell me to change myself, And argue when I disagree. Tell me I care "too much". Which is a flaw apparently. You used to call me beautiful, And it sounded so sincere. But since then, Harsh jokes or silence is all I seem to hear. If your words hurt me, I stay quiet in fear of seeming weak. It's not fair I have to think twice, Whenever I go to speak. Who do I turn to When I want someone to trust? You never cared about me, Since all you feel is lust. I used to lie to myself, Apologize for your mistakes. But now I can see the truth, And there's not much more I can take. Everyone seems to understand me, Except when it comes to you. While I fight for you everytime, I'm just some girl you chose to pursue. You aren't who I thought you were. My eyes always deceive. My friends told me you were careless, But I didn't want to believe. I'm not some puppet girl, You keep on a string. Things aren't going to change, So I need to stop wishing. Don't tell me it's all in my head, And you still care about me. You never knew what you wanted, So just set me free.