Perfectly intact

I plead insanity. By now I should have learned. Happiness is not for me. I'm here to get burned. It's so melodic. My heart drums a sullen beat. A tempo so despotic. Victory song of self defeat. I'm Insufferable. Thus should suffer being weak. Designed irreparable. Another fix is all I seek. It's narcotic. Now it wears my skin. Discordant harmonic. Bound to kill me from within. I fill the interim. Like a space that isn't there. Shows my delirium. You're not here because you care. I gave too much. Despite being empty. Life goes as such. Live to thrive on the futility.