Past Despair

Cut off from reason the thread of despair Falling past angels and falling from care Cut off from fighting the truth of my fear Gave up my hope when I looked through past years Pain and recall has buried my heart Nothing can call it apart from my art Self worth becomes weakened every time I can stand I’ll look back once again just to fade into sand Disconnected from feeling another one’s love Only in loss does my pain come to shove Connected to death and every last turn My vampiric nature will still never learn One more reason comes from one more of my rhymes One last love is lost all of the time One more decision was given up when I tried But try as I will, my hope has already died Blame it on childhood or blame it on me Whatever the truth, my desire is far out at sea I choose a lonely disparaged demise Because I know that I’ve already died