Passages of Time

You are my mother, and I love you so. It was so very hard, to let you go. Through the years, you've yelled at me, and made me cry. I didn't even bother, to ask you why. All these years,and the hurt remains. Memories of the past, and all the pain. My life at home,was always such a strain. The love from you, I could not gain. I tried very hard, to please you. But,nothing I did, could appease you. I sometimes wondered, if I had been a boy, If it wouldn't have given you,a little more joy. My dad, he loved me, and I knew he did. He loved me lots, when I was a kid. The love from you,now, I will never get. But, you and dad,I'll never forget. I hope there is,life after death. Maybe,I'll get another chance,to take a deep breath. Just hold the gate, open for me. You and dad,I'll surely come to see. Next time around,I hope is real good. Maybe we can be a family,likeI knew we should.