Pain

I have all this pain when I hear your name
I cry when I think about all the happy times
I get mad every I think of what you did to me
To you, you did nothing wrong
But to me you hurt me more then you know
Yet I can't help but think it's all my fault
If I wouldn't have let you into my heart you would have never been able to break it
For all my regrets comes greatly deep pain
This pain I feel will never go away
You can tell me you’re sorry tell your blue in the face
But it won't make the pain go away
I try really hard to forget you
But I just can't 
I wish so badly that I could
For if I could forget you and every thing about you 
I wouldn't have to cry
And I would be as strong as I was before I met you
Almost Like I never knew you
This is how I wish it was 
But it's not
I am doomed to think about you and every thing you did to me
All the lies you ever told and all the hurtful words you've ever said
I would do anything to go back in time and make it so I never said yes to you
My only wish now is I wish I would have been able to see right through you like 
everyone else can
This pain you have caused will never leave my side
Nor will it leave my mind or heart
I would love to hate your name
But I can't
I love to hate the thought of love and every being truly happy
Maybe I just not meant to be happy
I wouldn't be surprised I hate the pain you caused 
But I can't do anything about it I love to hate you 
Yet I can't

Copyright © Kimberly Carlson | Year Posted 2007

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