Pain

PAIN I HAVE NEVER DREAMT OF THIS WILL BE MY FATE. THE THINGS ARE TURNING INTO SIROCCO OF LIFE AGAIN AND AGAIN. THE TIME SHOULD HAVE STOPPED BY ME. AND SHOULD HAVE GONE ON AND ON. TH E FEEL IS HORRIBLE FEEL TO FOLLOW AND CAN'T BE CHANGED FOR FOREVER SO. IT HAS BEEN RUINED ALL ALONE. AND LEFT ALONE ON ISLE OF MY OWN. FEEL IS KICKING DEEP IN MY HEART. AND GIVING ANEURYSM TO ME IN MY HEART. THE PAIN IS UN-BEARABLE, AND COMING OUT OF THE PAIN IS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO FACE. IT IS NOT AT ALL WAY I THOUGHT. WHY CAN 'T IT BE THE WAY I THOUGHT. THE THINGS COMING BY ME ARE NOT THE THINGS I THOUGHT. THE FEEL IS KILLING ME DAY AND NIGHT. ELOPE IS THE THOUGHT I AM THINKING OF. TO GO ON ISLE WHERE I CAN FIND MY OWN. AND FEEL SHOULD BE GOOD TO FEEL.