Pain

You don't know what I go through, Im always bored stuck in my room, My mind still stuck on you, The heart is still stale like a broom, You must not know but I feel dead. I've been welcomed into hell, Looking at all the messages since you left me on read, When you speak I hear strange bells, I'm still scared to love, I feel death coming closer. I'm stuck but i want to fly like a dove, Wishing for the same thing, But it might cost me my life, To you it means nothing to me it means everything, You and I can see the pie but I still don't want a slice. I just want a future where I can fit in, Not a future that breaks my hands, I feel my life coming to an end, I can't even ask a question so I said and, I still feel a sharp pain in my skin. My bones feel like I'm being stabbed, I cant even move my hand it can't bend, My body around you is as stiff as a shell of a crab, I write cause this is how I vent, I also want to be looked at as a Friend.