Paid In Full

. Not long ago I had done something wrong committed a sin and the pain that I felt was as real and suffocating as any physical pain I’d ever felt. My shame and my sadness were so heavy upon me, the guilt ached in my heart. The realization then came to me if I felt so wounded and broken and ashamed and separated from my Father what then did it feel like to be You? I realized the harshness of your sentence. The pain and guilt I now felt, You my Jesus felt that multiplied by every sin I had ever committed or will ever. Oh my God your love Sins from the beginning of our creation until it is finished It’s no wonder to me now that your heart burst within you. To be blameless and willingly pay for our transgressions To take upon yourself and be so guilty that your Father could not look upon You. Forgive me my Lord for the pain I have grieved you and for the grief I will continue to cause. I will never understand your love