Optimism Tagged With Pessimism

I'm reserved..Don't say much... I'm shy..but confident as well.. I don't Express b/c I feel lurch... When my own said thoughts make my life hell !! My thoughts are pure and I know that! You make me feel like I've made a mistake... Mistaken..In choosing you from the lot! Mistaken...b/c my emotions r being put at stake! You'll one day realize what you've lost! I bet you will ! Just as now i'm realizing my fault! Realizing after being thrown from top of the hill ! . Will never expressmy sentiments again ever ! Optimism is dealt with pessimism everywhere Innocent being tagged as ''Clever'' Enough done ! Now can't bear ! . Not Everybody can know you ! Not Everybody can Understand you! Not everybody can feel the real person in You ! Everybody can NEVER be YOU !