Opening My Door

Trapped within a bud of a thorny rose Escaping and running into the night with you - where to nobody knows Broken and bareback - we ride 'til we weep Forever still watching my back - the demons will creep Mistletoed kisses hung in the doorways and arches Studying these sentences I form on parchment Never too serious - I'll never let them in When I'm equal - they have no clue where to begin Poisonous corners - shadiness gleams in the dark A bonified witch with a devil's mark A copy, a clone - synthetically built The patience and peace still left in my veins begin to tilt The saddened eyes make a saddened disguise They're crashing me down - forbidding me to rise Darkened diamond in this ember-burnt sky Awful regrets - wondering why Without my rock, my stone, my gem I can't feel comfortable within myself without him Tedious reasoning - stupid and vague Every fiber of my infinite soul you did raid Sparkling unrequited - fake and false dismay Stuck on believing inside your mind that there's only one way The pain of these wasted years you forced me to participate in Were rigged and corrupted to ensure that no matter what - I'd never win This whole time you wouldn't let me go You have this whole manifested idea of me - when you truly don't know You thought I'd just put myself in your And even if it's literally killing you and me - you still want it You had this idea you swore you thought you knew From the fact in the beginning - you admitted it was just to screw You led me on 8 years - and we're counting even more 'Cause you refused to believe I was different when to you I opened my door