One More

One more loss, to add to my heart, Once again insane, mind tore apart. The agony of not knowing why, As if life is just one big lie. The pains so real, inescapable hold, Words cant describe, no stores can be told. A state of denial, that cant be real, No one should experience this pain that I feel. How it hurts so deep inside, No where to run, no where to hide. I need help, so hard to talk, Just want to leave, go for a long walk. Escape the truth, make it go away, Please God, ill do what ever you say. Ease my mind, heal my heart, Give me my life, before it fell apart. Expecting the worst, hoping for the best, I guess living life is the ultimate test.