Not Understandable

Confused..the only way to say what i feel. Scared..Its complicated I want to know why. Lonely..feeling pathetic, unwanted. Isolated..no one can ever feel what i feel this very moment Lust..wanting him though he appears to be untouchable. Lost..who am i most of the time? Excited..feeling so alive and golden. Flirty..want to have him back Wistful.. hoping to live in the past back when we were us. Beautiful..not sure what i wanna do first but i know ill figure it out one day! :)