Not Today

This stretch of time I’ve come to see That I shall spend in misery A hollow shell I lye in wait Until my God decides my fate For I’ve no strength to venture out Beyond these walls of fear and doubt Your hope is that I’ll come to see The blessing still inside of me But this is where your selfish pride Peaks its foolish head inside And says won’t you come out and play “no way” I scream,no not today. Don’t you see this twisted wreck This tightened noose around my neck I couldn’t come out if I tried Did you forget my world just died? I fear it don’t mean much to you But I just lost the life I knew So if you say I’ll be ok That I should just come out and play I’ll tell you what I’ll say to that If you don’t mind a tit-for-tat I don’t tell you, what you should do and don’t assume you have a clue If never felt this painful sting Then please just don’t say anything no matter what you do or say I won’t come out, no not today.