Not Today

This stretch of time I’ve come to see
That I shall spend in misery

A hollow shell I lye in wait
Until my God decides my fate

For I’ve no strength to venture out 
Beyond these walls of fear and doubt

Your hope is that I’ll come to see
The blessing still inside of me

But this is where your selfish pride
Peaks its foolish head inside

And says won’t you come out and play
“no way” I scream,no not today.

Don’t you see this twisted wreck
This tightened noose around my neck

I couldn’t come out if I tried
Did you forget my world just died?

I fear it don’t mean much to you
But I just lost the life I knew

So if you say I’ll be ok
That I should just come out and play

I’ll tell you what I’ll say to that
If you don’t mind a tit-for-tat

I don’t tell you, what you should do
and don’t assume you have a clue

If never felt this painful sting
Then please just don’t say anything

no matter what you do or say
I won’t come out, no not today.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Lamoureux Avatar
March 16, 2016 at 10:12 AM
Each must mark in their own way and in their own time. Platitudes hold little comfort, a open heart and ear can be a great comfort.
Colasurdo Avatar
March 16, 2016 at 10:26 AM
Thank You Rick, obviously written during my darkest days. It's hard to go there and remember where I came from. I thank God I am not that guy anymore. It was so hard to be him.
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April 4, 2013 at 6:54 PM
Bernard, hope all is well. it has been a joy reading many of your poems. I guess many times others don't know how one truly feels. and alone works for me at times... good poem...pd
Tsiluma Avatar
December 26, 2012 at 9:37 AM
Amazing write Bernard! Putting oneself in another's shoes is just one thing that works well in theory but hardly ever in real life. I love the way you've delivered the poem - very well penned!
Brown Avatar
December 19, 2012 at 10:54 AM
A belated but warm welcome to PoetrySoup I offer to you today Bernard. I wish for you the best in your writing endeavors whatever they may be. Hoping you find even more inspiration by reading some of the poetry written here by other poets. Thank you for sharing your writing with us and have a wonderful weekend. Love, Carol
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