Not Hard Enough

I said, "I Love You" a million times, all my life all i did was try, all the constant jokes and mean things you would say, i would just ignore them to hear you say...."I Love You", for years the battle would become unbearable, the heartache so deep, my tears were invisible, the numbness stands strong when your around, until i'm alone and aloud to breakdown, to scurry up the courage all over again, to fight back the tears...I will love you to the end, because there's so much more to you i know inside, the things you hide...the heart you disguise, i bring out the things in you, you would rather not see, all the love, all the compassion...your sensitivity, you scold me for not being hard enough, while i yell back your being too rough, one day,,,i decided to be rough, like you, and i hated every minute of it....because it wasn't the truth, and it's not about whether or not you accept me, because in my heart i love the way that God made me to be.