No Reward For Honesty

I told the truth and lied to myself Both at the same time I'd love you forever Through sickness and health And still you won't be mine What am I to do I expose my bloody past Attempting to be trusted Pulled from the salvage Placed at your feet Broken down and rusted I lied cause I showed you And broke a promise to myself Hoping for acceptance But now I sit alone In the dark with all my past Begging for forgiveness