No Love Not Now

I was scared and afraid of what I could be. whenever a person of interest could really see me. I don't fall for palm reading, magic, religion,or sexual desires. All I want to know are you for me are you my special someone who will love and protect me.Can you see me as I am and not desire my body. Can you withhold your passion for me long enough to see the real me. So I can give you my gifts that are of not heavenly but earthly delights. I'll stay in disguise to enjoy you company and your patience with me. And test whether you are right for me. I will look like i don't belong, I will dress as if I look floppy, saggy, and unwanted to test you on what you want in a woman. Do you want my mind or my body. For now with you i will say no love not now. Until I'm ready and you are ready to love me as I am and my body as beautifully made and created with my mind as simple, witty and charming to go with it. So no love not now darling until were both ready.