Never Will I Ever

Never will I ever, even through continuous despair,
believe my entire existence is beyond repair.
Never will I ever believe the lie anymore,
that my life is too ruined for the good Lord to restore.

Never will I ever become so lost in heartache 
that I disregard the many hearts I'd break.
Never will I ever cause society to grieve
by choosing this disheartening way to leave.

Never will I ever do the thing I hate to mention
to take revenge or to get someone's attention.
Never will I ever let this be my gain to fame,
bringing such depth of shame on the family name.

Never will I ever believe that this will make me free,
or in sorrow or anger think this world doesn't need me.
Never will I ever forget that my life is eternal,
and trade earthly misery for an endless lake infernal.

Even when I'd rather forever run and hide, 
never will I ever, ever choose suicide.
Never will I ever, (God help me!) heaven forbid,
Make that horrific decision that you regrettably did.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Horsch Avatar
September 19, 2019 at 10:23 AM
I love the emotion in this poem. It seems like that's when you write your best is when it's full of emotion whether it be happy or sad. It is a well-written poem....luv
Ligon Avatar
September 22, 2019 at 12:46 AM
Thanks, Roger. I might touch on this topic again in another form.
Lamoureux Avatar
September 19, 2019 at 9:01 AM
So sorry about your co-worker. It is heartbreaking when someone feels there is no other way out. You do well to cling to your faith. I believe God can help during those dark times. Also people should not be ashamed to seek help. I wrote a piece titled Dark Lover that deals with this topic.
Ligon Avatar
September 22, 2019 at 12:15 AM
Thanks for your condolences. It still chills me to think of her dark desent.
One Avatar
April 29, 2019 at 1:59 PM
A deep and emotive poem.. really sad..
Dietrich Avatar
April 26, 2019 at 6:15 PM
oh wow, the end line really delivered a PUNCH. GREAT work, Juliet.
Ligon Avatar
September 22, 2019 at 12:16 AM
Thanks, Andrea.
May Avatar
April 26, 2019 at 12:27 PM
It is so sad when someone take their own life, especially people you know, Your poem shows your resolve to overcome that feeling...Powerful write Juliet
Ligon Avatar
April 29, 2019 at 8:26 PM
Yes, it breaks my heart every time I think of my coworker who took her own life, and I promise myself by God's grace l will never do the same thing. Thanks for your comments, Joseph.
Marcum Wong Avatar
April 25, 2019 at 9:19 PM
To exit early harms the progress of your soul. A very good friend of mine left early. She feared she would because her mother and brother were mentally unstable and took their own lives as well. It is so sad to lose someone this way. She was beautiful and had everything to live for but the power was too great that overtook her. Your poem is beautiful and a tribute to your loss. xxoo
Ligon Avatar
April 29, 2019 at 8:18 PM
Thanks. Sorry about your loss as well. How heartbreaking.
Fraser Avatar
April 21, 2019 at 1:02 AM
Hi Juliet, i love the stance you take here and a very expressive one at that. Well written and good flow. I enjoyed it. Blessings Carl
Ligon Avatar
April 22, 2019 at 11:25 PM
Thanks, Carl. I had those thoughts as an emotional teenager, but now I have distain of even the thought. My coworker recently commited suicide and it's so heartbreaking and disturbing to think about.
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