Never Giving Up!

I beg and I plead, but I never succeed! Asking someone to take my life away, I’m sick of living torturously day to day! I never give up, getting on my knees and pray every night, to not wake up, not to live to see the next day light. My only goal in life is to die, I don’t really understand it all why? Why do I only want to die, why am I sad, I have so many mixed emotions It just makes me mad. I cry at least once a day, not wanting this pain anymore, I struggle to succeed and do my best, but what for? It’s all gonna end sooner or later, so why try? Everyone saying I have to succeed to live is a lie! It’s easier to not do anything and live my life with a smile, Then try and try, and never succeed only for a while. A whole day goes by and I’m still laying in bed, Asking for relief and happiness, just asking to be dead! If I only had a gun, this would all be done, As the blood drips and a tear falls, just one! Everytime I fantasize about it I grin, Waiting for it to happen, but when! It’s never going to happen and it blows, I guess this is how life goes. You suffer you cry, just hopin to die, But I gotta wait it out why? Let’s just kill myself now, I just gotta figure out a way how! But I’m never giving up getting on my knees every night, To not wake up, to not see the next day light, And now I understand why.