Negative and Sad

3/31/21 Stoner Loner An addict Always at it The chronic Still on it Can't get off it Or stop it On top of it A serious alcoholic The problem Is constant And toxic Causing conflict Being honest Often catatonic Nearly unconscious Shoutout to Juice Wrld, "everywhere I go feels haunted" "This isn't the life I wanted" Damn it Battling habits Bringing me closer to a casket Using gadgets And tablets During daylight or pitch blackness It's gone beyond Doing my body and bank account a lot of damage Even if I manage to "manage" It does me no advantage And is extra baggage Dirt I dug and shoveled Remaining humble People quick to burst your bubble In ways that are obvious or subtle On the double Staying out of trouble Even though it's a jungle Got to solve each and every puzzle Can't buckle Even though I continue to struggle Been far too dependent Temporarily splendid But really unpleasant The cycle has not ended Eventually the heart stops beating When it comes to death, there is no cheating