My Words Only Destroy

No one is here No one is there They all left and deserted me Their taunts and torments I cannot flee And I become so full of anger and hate Now whenever anyone good tries to help My words only destroy Consuming all life, burning all joy My angry heart burns Pent up emotions yearn For freedom, for light, for a friend But all are gone…gone in the end Tears burn my eyes No one caring-no goodbyes They’re just gone Gone And any good that may have been around Is now buried in the ground Then she comes one by Slowly, almost unnoticeable like a fly She slips in, laid back and full of hope Want to help, give a way to cope She’s so quiet and coy But my words only destroy My anger controlling me I just want to be free And I feel terribly sorry for my venomous bite You only try to help-not fight I want to believe in you I really do But in reality I am too afraid I fear that I am too far lost in hate for your aid But still you try Even after I make you cry Everything lacking joy And my words only destroy How do I know…you will stick around in the end Be the one who is a true friend I do know I know Because you have told me so And I will believe in you And do all I need to do To change this shattering, decomposing angry heart Change my view, get a fresh start And maybe one day I will no longer hurt you And I’ll be able to show you Just how much you mean to me If I can make it, get away from this hate and be free But doubt clouds my thoughts Hoping is it worth the pain Waiting for this healing rain My words continue to destroy It will never change…I will never change…only destroy Only destroy