My Train of Thought Now At 36

we stimulate our minds for our intellect to grow becoming more technical remaining spiritually slow so we face trials and tribulation crisis and complications praising God, while serving Satan expecting love when spewing hatred our faith is dissipating until its totally forsaken for miracles we pray yet and still we disobey missed lessons means blocked blessings wrong paths are chosen cursed to glimpse the promised land but never enter like Moses it's hard to humble ourselves cause we've got pride so we find a hard head leaves a soft backside when stressed i ride reclined, inside sounds booming trying hard to decipher the message in our music Pac said keep your head up Treach said guard your grill Wu sang protect your neck Cube said to kill at will Eazy said easy does it Run said hard times Jigga ask can I live but Big ready to die 50 cent said get rich ore die trying K.R.S made stop the violence, and listen to my nine these are questionable times that leave young impressionable minds hoping to find success pushing dope on the grind thinking all the pain would end if they became rich but the harder they hustle the more pain and anguish if we could understand the hustle we would over stand the struggle instead we constantly land back in trouble on frivolous pursuits searching for forbidden fruits living lies until they collide with the moment of truth I been there and done that played with fire and got burned as soon as my hand healed I'd run back so young and misguided mama said don’t do it I tried it it's by God's grace I survived it flash back to my youth I was so naive and timid wondering if that path I walked on is the one the Lord intended tired of getting beat by bullies so I learned to prevent it but I found my self in front of the judge as a defendant five times aquited of crimes that I committed but the one time I was innocent is when I got convicted justice may be blind, but she so vindictive so I struggle with it trying to make since out of the senseless