My Only Regret

My only regret I can think of Is not being honest with myself and others For so long I've been in denial I watched him die in my arms And yet I act as if nothing ever happened Now I’m quiet, shy and afraid of people I witnessed a crime committed, Against my husband to be Shot in a drive by him was Now he and I are no more How I wish it never happened Now im screwed up inside Not sure if I should trust people or hide I don't want the past to happen again As the days go by, I wish it was me who died and not him It scares me so much to think of him Now all I can do is write my poetry To cast away all of my pain Through words is the only way I know