My Lonely Birthday

...This evening;
(I will age.)
I will crumble,
...to deceased;
clutching the remnants of happiness
...to my chest.

Like the most precious treasure
...lost for eternity,
I resign myself to defeat;
tonight,
...on my lonely birthday.

The spiders comfort me,
weave silk blankets to quell my tears.
They dance for me,
sway from spinneret to spinneret,
...but they cannot stop the despair,
which I feel,
...on my lonely birthday.

The spirits, O' so human
...are the spirits,
that bring me gifts wrapped in ectoplasm
(and a bow)
...an old toothbrush, a used comb,
which they found laying in the road;
will not stop the pain that eats at me.

I tell them to go home.
...they make faces,
dance and joke
(to find my smile)
...I lost it long ago,
on a deserted road
(where few would go)
my tears continue unabated.

Regardless of the sentiment,
...the will of merriment,
I will weep against a wall
(fore there is loneliness in a crowd)
the feeling of obligation,
feeling so unwanted,
the world itself is insincere.

So I will weep against a wall,
pushing back the happiness
(possessed by loneliness)
...yet another wasted year,
culminating,
...on my lonely birthday.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Brown Avatar
October 26, 2010 at 10:42 AM
May your week be one of good health, may your heart be full of love, and your life give you amazing inspiration for your writing. I enjoyed reading your exceptional poetry and thank you for sharing it Michael. Love, Carol
Haick Avatar
October 25, 2010 at 1:02 PM
Happy Belated Birthday Michael! I just read your sad verse and I agree, loneliness is a tough place to be.. Pls don't despair..as you're not alone..millions around the world feel what you feel, everyday! Now,it's hard but think of the possibilties that exist for the coming year!! There will be new surprises to explore..keep believing, hoping. Cry,but don't believe the lie that there's no one out there who cares.. don't lock yourself away...maybe volunteering to help some kids read..?Love audrey
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October 25, 2010 at 12:58 PM
deep and strong write, enjoyed this one dearly,..P.D.
Mehta Avatar
October 25, 2010 at 12:53 PM
Very sad and touchy thoughts on your birthday, Michael
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