My Grand Obsession

This wild and abandoned love that I feel for you Desperate and obsessive and willfully blind Love as love is at its purest With no sense of the future Love beguiled by the present and unable to see the signs That’s what always scares me the most The total domination of my feelings Being consumed by you Constantly thinking about you Every thought, every feeling, every impulse Whatever I was doing there you were The fantasies constantly racing through my mind You became my Grand Obsession At times, the old fears would push to the surface, like a strange de ja vu I would say to myself Tomorrow will be different, this foolishness will end I will wake feeling normal again and sane But that never seems to happen I think of the moments when I am with you When nothing else seems to matter And how the anticipation of future meetings is somehow, sometimes, more than my heart can endure When I feel lost, desperate and somehow, almost ashamed This obsession is madness What have I become Where is my world Then I suddenly realize Too late It’s already gone