My Daily Cries

People are always selling these true LIES! I have seen more pain with these EYES. Than generations before, and after ME, Will see after the T.V., shows episodes of their LIFETIMES! Leaving you in a state of speechless like MIMES! This much pain is not healthy for any human MIND. I was forced from a young age, To be my family backbone and SPINE! Oh how I wish God TIME, Could REWIND! The clocks hands keep TICKING! My mom keeps TRIPPIN! Telling me I’m following in my father FOOTSTEPS! Cursing me, like it was my fault, she was not always RESPECTED! Like it was my fault, by my father, she was NEGLECTED! Why does she blame me for his FAULTS! Like it’s really my FAULT! He’s LOST! Even if he could be FOUND, I don’t think I would, even want him NOW! I can honestly say to you, I have a father with no FACE! A father with no HEART! A father with no RESPONSIBILITIES! My mother say, everything that is in my father, lives on in ME! I’ll never understand! Why she hates me? Does she see, some of my father characteristics, in my PERSONALITY Although I fight all of the time, With the thought of being just like my DADDY! Sometimes I feel like him wanting to disown and abandon his FAMILY! Then I realize they are all I HAVE! My mother was forced to be my MOM and my DAD! My father left me to all by MYSELF. To pursue his “own” life and his “own” personal WEALTH! Not UNDERSTANDING! His WEALTH! Was here with him always by his side STATNDING! This, he could not SEE! He looked at the family life, as the white man, often looks at ME! As my ancestors, Looked at the chains on their feet, Wanting to be FREE! As my black generations looked at SLAVERY! With so much pain! Hate! ANIMOSITY! Showing so much HOSTILITY! Where is this God? They say! Arose from the DEAD! Why have this living thorn! Through his family been forced to be the HEAD!