My Curse

I have many times before, Tried to walk away from this poetry of mine, But as usual ended up in a state of deplore. Alas, this life of abhor has grown into an addicted entwine. My life as a poet is all cold sweat, I guess is now my curse. It is now trapped on a piece of paper within a duet, and my moments are trapped within its verse. As I live my moments……` My life is now but a dream, And the dream is now my life. I have no longer the need to scream, these written words are a silent whisper akin a surgeon’s knife. All my life I have had to be a fighter, And my pen gave me my voice, Now I know why I am a writer who has won his fights without a noise. My past is spiked and laced with mistakes, I don’t have, any remorse or regret, my mind and its temple have borne the bruises and aches, Am smug about it and would like to relive it without being upset. My devious past fuels my emotionally charged words and text, And fires from within me the unchained rage, Am never about it vexed or even perplexed, As in this ink lies my sweat, blood & tears, stained & burnt but easy to gauge. My verses are my memories of the bygone, The paper on which I write on is my stage, My tainted pen nib is my microphone, And my life is perched on what was once a blank page. For quite some time now this pen is my teacher, And my mind controls these words I write, These verses guide me out of darkness and make me richer, And become the beacon, my guiding light. I have spent so much time alone, That I needed someone to say hi My life was stuck in silence and blown, I pick up this pen when feelings low have to glide by. As I scribble my dreams, The ink replaces my tears, The verses consume my life with screams, and I sculpt within them all my fears. I have tried to walk away from this poety, But my life is snared up in a verse, My life is trapped on a piece of paper, My poetic life is now my curse.