My Confession

Am on tension You are right to question If my situation Leads me to contradiction Then I need a solution Rather than seek medication, Meditation or attention See, I am sick Same stories week after week Am weak, Am in check But I choose to stay meek Stuck like a brick In the wall, even during an earthquake. All night, I stay awake Crying tears that can't fill lake This must all be fake My heart bleeds, it's gonna break Stress at the peak Chewing on my emotions like cornflake If this is a dream, I wanna wake Tell me all the options I can take, For only the right one shall I pick. Everytime you ask me about Shalom. My stomach bubbles making foam. And then burns like there is a flame. I can't deny, but take the blame. Thought all I did was for fame. I didn't realise I was being tamed. I was beaten at my own game. See, Shalom is a gem. Her voice is a charm. And everytime she is in the room. It's never the same. I always fail to keep calm. I wanna move on, maybe as fast as a deer. But I don't wanna stop calling you my dear. I made a mistake with a peer. Influenced by the liquor, I treasured the beer. But I never forgot our love is dear. If a sorry can bring you some cheer. Then in your eyes darling I will stare. And say the words because I care. You are the type of girl I can't compare. Because when you come around, you take me there. Perfect couple, we are a lovely pair. I kill my pride, I wanna be fair. This heartbreak is heavy, the type of pain I can't bare. Or maybe I have no decision to make. Maybe I just miss the cakes you bake. Maybe I should take a break. Sit and focus on my next cheque. Before I get a control fleak. Or get myself used to the trick.