My Beautiful Delusions

Another day another disappointment. we both use each other so why should I be mad? it's simply because I'm selfish as **** decidedly self obsessed, you're supposed to love me! that's what I need it doesn't matter what you need. I'm so delusional I probably only love you because I can't ever actually have you. You don't love me because you can have me in a second, you could have me at the drop of habit. even now as my phone lights up at the foot of my bed I almost break my neck to check if that text came from you. it didn't. of course it didn't.