Missed Call

I called upon you,when my swollen eyes would fill with water,you didn't reach for my hand,drowning in a lack of romance,i called upon you,on certain days when i felt lonely,you disappeared out of thin air,wishing you would come back to me,i called you,when my needs were unfulfilled,looking for strong support,leaving my heart with guilt,i called upon you,when sickness became my routine,not cured from isolation,to imagine you didn't leave,i called upon you,when bad thoughts came to mind,thinking about my future,with you left behind