Misconception
I admit that it was last summer I really envied everything about her
from her well-groomed head right down to her perfectly manicured feet,
Deep down inside I found myself wanting to be her
and I wanted her to be me.
She never had to worry about not having a car
because she always had a new ride waiting in her driveway,
She never had to continously stay at home and be bored
and just daydream of getting away.
She never had to take care of a small child 24/7
tending to his every whim and need,
All she had to do was leave her child with Grandmother's
and let her handle all of her child's wants and needs.
She always seemed to have money in her pocket
shopping at the mall was her favorite past time,
She always seemed to have had new clothes hanging up in her closet
and she always semmed to have had her hair and nails looking so fine.
I looked at her as having the life that I so muc had desired
a life that I also felt that I so much deserved,
I would look at myself and at my life thinking they were both too simple and tired
I wanted and desired more than just love.
Many nights I had found myself laying awake
with so many doubts and so many fears,
The love of my life never knew how much my heart ached
and how much I longed for things to been different here.
I thought she had it much better than me
her life just seemed more exciting and adventourous compared to mine,
Unfortunatly, it was the pubic image of her that I had only seen
and not the real brat behind the closed, four walls.
Even though she had much more material riches than I
she was poorly lacking in self-respect and dignity,
After realizing that known fact my eyes were then opened wide
my life was way better and was richly satisfying abunduntly.
I have a family that honestly and sincerely loves me
and there is food in my cupboards and a roof over my head,
The material things really matters not all that much to me
it is the love from my family that has made me feel so blessed.
Copyright © Wanda Mckinney | Year Posted 2006
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