Mind Over Matter

Sitting still in the dark, Not looking for love, Yet so eagerly yearning it, My heart is calling out, I can't stop these feelings of pain. Around all those with love in thier life, Trying to stop them for my own, Feeling selfish, yes, but needing not, Not of my own will but of the will of my heart, My brain is screaming no while my heart pushes on. Annoyance to others to avoid, Everything seems so dark and lonely, Rejecting chances at love, For fear of being hurt and tortured, Seeing everyone else prosper. Why must everthing fail with me, Everything hurting and aching, Feeling sick due to my emotions, Love has no plan for me, Left to die on a cold rainy night. -Shane Bennett