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Meth

Its not hard to see why I need you so much
Its obvious to me why i crave your touch
When i first met you, I was untainted and free
I had no idea how to even be me
As long as I can remember I just wanted that need
The kind of love that's unstoppable, the kind that you feed
You became a part of me, the air inside my chest
You snuck into my mind and I could no longer rest
You filled me with confidence, deep in my soul
After you, there was no longer a giant hole
We became one instantly, to never be apart
I was a teen and you had stolen my heart
You made the whole world mold to my vision
How was i to know it was a head on collision?
Blindsighted, you tricked me with your lies
You sold me happiness but what i got was cries
It wasn't long before you demanded all of my time
You began to consume me, forced me to crime
Ill never forget the day I realized you had changed
You no longer filled my soul, you just  rearranged
Your grasp was so tight I couldn't let go
So once again,I fell deeper, to our all time low
You gave me a way to get back to that high
All i had to do was tie off and try
It was like the beginning but it didn't last long
I had found an answer, but the answer was wrong
Thats when it happened, you slowly took it all
Any piece that was left of me, away it would fall
Your love turned into a controlling mess
Where you used to give me more, i now had less
You took my smiles and replaced them with fear
You had my life, i could no longer steer
People left my side because you were there
They disappeared, they no longer cared 
Alone i was reaching out and there was only you
So once again, you had to pull me through
Further and further i fell inside myself to die
It was so dark i could barely even try
The weight holding me down was what pulled me thru
How could i ever live without you?
Desperation wasn't enough. I now had a need
You tangled yourself in me like some sort of weed

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