Many Questions

Why did I cover up?
Why did I stay so long?
Why did I not leave after the first punch?
Why did I take all those beatings?
Why did I not walk out the door?
Why did I ever sleep in the same bed with him?
Why did I ever allow him to touch me after those brutal nights?
Will I ever be able to give my whole heart?
Will I ever find true love?
Or am I just meant to be alone?
I know I made so many mistakes.
I have so many unanswered questions.
I just know I am tired.
Tired of being thought of as a victim.
Tired of people thinking I am nothing.
Tired  of being invisible.
Tired that I don't matter to a single soul.
I will move on this I know.
I just wish I had answers.
But I guess we all do I am just one of many................
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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De La Keur Avatar
July 20, 2009 at 2:17 AM
Its sad, I feel you babe, I asked myself those same questions but I can say you mean A LOT to me, even if I don't always show it. I love you Big Sis, and you really DO have a good heart. I'm sorry you feel like this. Love you honey.....Dreary Leerie
K Avatar
May 23, 2009 at 10:13 PM
I'm so sorry you had to live like this.....the words in this poem are sad but powerful, great job! -Jessica
Austin Avatar
May 22, 2009 at 7:03 AM
After what you've been through I would imagine society looks pretty rotten. There is love out there, though, and I hope you find a whole heap of it. I am sending BIG LOVE, daver
Suzadail Jr. Avatar
May 21, 2009 at 6:52 PM
One of too many. It takes courage to walk away. It takes courage to write about it. Never worthless, always priceless. God Bless. Vince
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