Make It Legal

It's sad it's considerered wrong
Ok,
it's more than sad it's just tragic
Something that can make life just go away
not just pain
but life
And life can be horrible
And beautiful
but it's best to just avoid it all
and go through the motions 
the kisses
the holding
the punching
the scolding
The only time I felt
on that wonderful STUFF
was when my eye were shut
and the things I felt were better than
life can ever be 
and I experienced them with the people,the way I wished the could be
I could of stayed like that all day
but I had to head to Brooklyn
to scrub more than a few bucks
to get some more of that beige beauty
gift wrapped in wax
paper, with a stamp on it
A message from my lover?
Or just another man who makes a living
by selling death?
Can't blame a man for making a living.

I was inside some fast food joint
in a bathroom stall with a person
who was at sometime a friend
who was now a robot who hung with
 my robot self.

I wondered
5 years later...
Why did I ever give it up?
Now I am no longer just going through
the motions.
I actually have to feel the emotions that
come with the motions,
I just want to feel that damn feeling
I just don't understand what
stops me?
It sure aint love
or fear
Maybe I was just tired of scrubbing money
in 100 degree weather...
yes, thats probably it.

Copyright © Danielle Pastirchak | Year Posted 2011

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