Loving is a cherem

I did tell you before About all the things that made me cry and made my heart sore. I remember begging you to never lie as lies had torn me apart in the past. Your assurance seemed so true I just never knew it wouldn’t last. and you never gave out any clue. Or maybe because I betrayed myself and chose to believe you. Just like a new book pilled on a shelf I allowed you to use me, too. You enjoyed turning me all over Forgetting how relieved I was when you took me and swore to give a hand only to give me a cold shoulder. Your “I love you” texts made me feel appreciated Little did I know, I wasn’t the only one receiving them. When I was smiling over your text Someone else was smiling for them also. I’ve seen people go through this ‘falso’. I did not think I was next. That’s funny right? Now everything’s complicated, I should’ve know that loving is a cherem. Cherem- something given over to the lord or under a ban Falso- Spanish word translating to false or fake in English.